Couple of months have passed. and here I am. living my life. with you beside me. it was funny from the first day we met. never thought i could fall for anyone else. but you knocked me at hello. so let’s make this journey goes happily..
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Look carefully to the title. Is it really me who wrote this?
I myself barely realized that most of my posts are all about sadness, disappointment and anger. The readers, especially those who don’t get to know me personally, could get wrong impression about me because of my ‘sorrow’ blog. But believe me, the inspiration comes smoother when you’re being sad, isn’t it?
But today, I quite find myself more peaceful. Bad things do occur. But I love you, my life. And it’s good to feel good like this 🙂
It’s life. We live for it. The question might terrorize us in every single event in our life.
Any situations could be dramatical as ever, drowning you to the lowest level, but you’re still be able to breathe in it.
The thing is. Either you learn from it, or understand it as the way of God telling you of how to be a better person afterwards.
It could be the most difficult task in the world. For pretending that you don’t give a damn about a thing/a person/a problem or anything, but in fact you do care about it. And that’s exactly how I felt when I was sitting next to you. I put my mask to cover what’s inside, and switch on my Ms. Fake system, so you won’t have any idea about the deepest feeling I have for you. *sorry if the reader wanna puke at this moment :p*
Then why it seems so damn difficult?
1. Because I do have a feeling for you. The purest statement- for all this time. While at the same time, I must act like the opposite one.
2. The way of you look at me. I can feel it, it’s different.
3. I still haven’t got the answer. And the worst part, I can’t bear any of rejection.
But let’s keep it this way.
Sometimes you just need to forget how you feel and remember what you deserve, right?
So bravo, Ms. Fake!
*Dibuat dalam keadaan sangat sadar, pasrah, antara sedih tapi harus tegar*
I know I’ll never be good enough for you, but it doesn’t mean you have to underestimate me anytime you want. I’m trying to be the best for you, prove you that I can be what you want. But it seems I’ll never reach to that point.
As a matter of fact, I am afraid of being with you because you make me feel like I am the worst.
And it’s not the concept of love that I would want/have. Thanks anyway for make me realize, and for bring out the worst in me.
I’ll find somebody new that can accept me the way I am. Love you, but not the way you treat me. Ciao!
In a term called “friend”, could you act like one please?
“You can’t always get what you want. But if you try sometimes, well you just might find. You’ll get what you need..”
This song from Rolling Stones has inspired me a lot.
Yesterday, I was thinking about every bits of my life and suddenly felt there’s something missing in my life. The loneliness feeling once again crawls all over me.
I do have a great family, friends, good career, but I miss HIM or I miss being WE. If this feeling sticks to me for longer time, I am afraid that I’d forget what it was like. To have those butterflies around your stomach, oh I miss it!
I do believe that God plans some beautiful things for me at the right time. But why if it comes to this issue, I feel so damn lost 😦