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I spent Valentine’s day watching Duncan Sheik’ gigs at Hard Rock Cafe.

Can’t believe that he finally came to Indonesia!

I love it when he sang ‘Half Life’..

“I don’t mind a few mysteries
they can stay that way it’s fine by me
and you are another mystery i am missing

It takes so much out of me to pretend

maybe, I need to see the daylight
to leave behind this half-life
don’t you see I’m breaking down..” 

Total Recall

Kamu. Aku. Di garis waktu yang sama.

Berdebat di bedanya masing kutub.

Namun bersisian di nyamannya sekumpulan momen.

Momen yang ternyata sulit kubuang jauh..   


Good to Feel Good

Look carefully to the title. Is it really me who wrote this?

I myself barely realized that most of my posts are all about sadness, disappointment and anger. The readers, especially those who don’t get to know me personally, could get wrong impression about me because of my ‘sorrow’ blog. But believe me, the inspiration comes smoother when you’re being sad, isn’t it?

But today, I quite find myself more peaceful. Bad things do occur. But I love you, my life. And it’s good to feel good like this 🙂  

I demand for this wedges. Apparently, it becomes a trend in this early year. It’s everywhere!

Hanging On Too Long

This Duffy’s song is just perfectly fit to my current situation 😥 

It was just my mistake thinking you care
It was just my mistake thinking you’d be there
That you’d be by my side and that you wouldn’t lie

It was just my false hope thinking we’d last
It was just my false hope, forgot all your past
All those girls you denied
Smashed up hearts hung out to dry

I know it’s wrong, hanging on too long
But I need to move on, hanging on too long

I was a fool for you right from the start
I was a fool for you hoping for a spark
For some kind of sign that you would be mine

My friend shocked me by saying to the man that she had rejected, that she would find him a girl to love. Unsurprisingly, the man didn’t accept her offer.

The issue is not about finding someone to love, but hey.. at the first place, you can’t choose with whom you’re going to fall in love with. You can’t even ask for it. You didn’t ask to fall for a jerk, or even to fall for your bestfriend. Most of the time, you just trap in that unlikely situation that you couldn’t manage to get out of it. But it is your heart decides. The rest is up to the one you love, to love you back or not. 

In my case, I would really feel devastated if the guy that I love said that to me. He may reject me, but I will appreciate if he doesn’t behave like a hero in my love life.

It is love that I feel, not that I plan. Period.

“It’s late and I’m feeling so tired/ Having trouble sleeping/ This constant compromise between thinking and breathing/ Could it be I’m suffering because I’ll never give in?/ Won’t say that I’m falling in love/ Tell me I don’t seem myself/ Couldn’t I blame something else?/ Just don’t say I’m falling in love../ Cause I’ve been there before and it’s not enough/So nobody say/ Don’t even say it/I’ve got my eyes shut/ Won’t look/ Oh no, I’m not in love…”

Just don’t say I’m falling in love.. yeah rite Ine..

then why on earth you’re willing to cross the sea and the mountain for a thousand miles away..  just to see him?

I’ll See You There!

Don’t I deserve a little hi from you just like we used to? What did I do wrong for not having it anymore?

I know you might see me as a ‘crazy person’ for being in love with you. But If I have other option, I wish I could have that. I wish I could treat you as I treat my other friends.  In the end, I just wish I don’t love you.

Because you (unitentionally) hurt me in some way. 

“….Ninety miles outside Chicago/ Can�t stop driving I don�t know why/ So many questions I need an answer/ 2 years later, he�s still on my mind/ Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?/ Who holds the stars up in the sky?/ Is true love just once in a lifetime?/ Did the captain of the Titanic cry?/Someday we�ll know If love can move a mountain/ Someday we�ll know Why the sky is blue/ Someday we�ll know Why I wasn�t meant for you/ Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?/ What the wind says when she cries?/ I�m speeding by the place that I met you/ For the 97th time tonight/Someday we�ll know If love can move a mountain/ Someday we�ll know Why the sky is blue/ Someday we�ll know Why I wasn�t meant for you/Someday we�ll know Why Samson loved Delilah/ One day I�ll go Dancing on the moon/ Someday you�ll know That I was the one for you/I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow/ And watched the stars crash into the sky/ If I could ask God just one question/Why aren�t you here with me tonight/ Someday we�ll know If love can move a mountain/ Someday we�ll know Why the sky is blue/ Someday we�ll know Why I wasn�t meant for you………………………”

Maybe someday we’ll find those answers in the end, why we’re not being together. I just wish I could have it at any time soon 😥