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After the Love Has Gone

For awhile to love was all we could do/ we were young and we knew and our eyes were alive
Deep inside we knew our love was true
For awhile we paid no mind to the past/ we knew love would last
Every night something right/ would invite us to begin the dance

Something happened along the way/ what used to be happy was sad
Something happened along the way/ and yesterday was all we had
And after the love has gone
how could you lead me on/ and not let me stay around
after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong/ can love that’s lost be found

For awhile to love each other with all/ we would ever need
Love was strong for so long
never knew that what was wrong/ oh baby wasn’t right
We tried to find what we had/ till sadness was all we shared
We were scared this affair would lead our love into

Something happened along the way/ what used to be happy was sad
Something happened along the way/ and yesterday was all we had
And after the love has gone
how could you lead me on/ and not let me stay around
after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong/ can love that’s lost be found

 

Heard this song over and over again.. yesterday was all we had.. but tomorrow is what i’m aiming for.. whoosah!

Food for Thought

Got this from a friend of mine..

Even though sometimes the world seems about six sizes too small for our pain, the amazing shit is that no matter how deep purple the bruise is, no matter how dark and overwhelming and miserable and worthless it all seems the world will get a fraction of an inch bigger every day.

Really, every fucking day.

And you won’t notice it for a long time until suddenly, one day, it’s only five times too small for your pain and then four and then the world will just keep getting larger and larger in comparison to your shattered heart and eventually it will be able to hold it and then it will outgrow it.

And your pain will be just a speck in your world.

It is supposed to feel like the end of the world right now. That is how you know that it was worth it. That is why it was one of the relationships that shook your core and after which you will never be the same. That is how you know that you are growing up and are experiencing shit rather than living safely in risk-free choices.

The world is supposed to feel as though it is ending and you are supposed to know only in the most dormant recesses of the backmost corner of your soul that it will not be like this forever.

You are supposed to feel acutely and lucidly that everything is over that your purpose for life is worthless and that not even cheesy pasta and molly ringwald movies are going to make you smile, and you are supposed to know opaquely and elusively and abstractly that everything is not over and that your purpose in life is so much huger than you can ever imagine and is still saturated with value and that you will eat pesto and read Stephen Dunn and live in Manhattan and have stacks of waffles at corner diners with girlfriends and spend inordinate amounts of money on bath products and sunbathe on the roof reading trashy novels and you will will will will will will will love again.

That is what you are supposed to think.

I cried hysterically for months. I wept so much that I had stewardesses on planes ask me if I needed oxygen, I had waitresses refuse to serve me, I had strangers approach me with offers of help.

Then I stopped.

Then I started again and stopped again and started again and then stopped for good…

… I promise you will survive, and with more grace than you can now imagine and that you will have more grit and vision because of it.

Moral: Sometimes someone can crack open something that feels very safe and make you unreasonably vulnerable: you will live to tell the story of this shock.

You have to surround yourself with life that brings out what you like about yourself, not what’s easy. It’s impossible to do sometimes, but it’s something to strive for.

Semangat Ine! You can do it! Don’t let someone who doesn’t deserve, ruins your beautiful life!

I Don’t Know …

 

“And I never knew at that age, in my 20s, that “I don’t know” is actually a legitimate answer that you’re allowed to say. You’re allowed to say, I don’t know, and you’re allowed to ask for as much time as you need until you do know. And if somebody doesn’t wanna give you that time, they’re allowed to leave. But you’re allowed to sit with your I don’t know. And I never sat with it because it was uncomfortable. Nobody likes that place. And so I always said yes. Oh, sure. Let’s move in together, let’s get married, let’s buy a house, let’s do all this stuff that I was sort of half yes, half no.” – EG

How?

I don’t understand..

How forever turns into a few short months that you would do almost anything to get back.

How you can let go of something that once you can’t live without.

How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same.

How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.

How people makes promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.

How people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out.

How?

There is always.. always something to be grateful for,even in your so-called-rainy days:
1. Endless love and support from your family.
2. Back-ups from your besties.
3. A job that you’ve always been dreaming of and you’re still in love with it.
4. Colleagues who eventually become your closest friends.
5. Brussels and Milan trip this year.
6. Even for small yet big things like.. You get a chance to wake up everyday, you can sleep in your comfort bed, you can eat well, you’re still be able to laugh and feel stronger each day!

You don’t feel anything less.

Alhamdulillah.. God is good 🙂

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It seems that my sunshine has turned into storm 😦

Couple of months have passed. and here I am. living my life. with you beside me. it was funny from the first day we met. never thought i could fall for anyone else. but you knocked me at hello. so let’s make this journey goes happily..

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And finally.. this the second part of my winter trip to Hong Kong!

Day 4:

We started the day with me and him jogging around Victoria Road. Then our adventure began at Ngong Ping Village, Lantau Island. It was so exciting when we took cable car to reach the village, although some times I was terrified when the wind blew so hard on us and reached to see Big Buddha, Po Lin Monastery and we got our lunch at Abenezeer. After lunch, we went to Tsim Sha Tsui, another shopping spot in Hong Kong. We passed Kowloon Park to reach Harbour City, one of the biggest malls in HK. Then we jumped on Star Ferry to reach Central, anyway this ferry is highly recommended, it’s a great way to see the view of the city. In the afternoon, we took bus to get to the Peak. The journey is quite fascinating because we can see Hong Kong at night with its beautiful city lights.  We decided to go home by bus, after seeing many people was queuing at the line of Peak Tram.

Day 5:

We wandered around Mongkok and finally found Hui Lau Shan, the well-known dessert place in town. We shared mango dessert, and it tasted so delicious! Mango puree, mango slices, mango dices, mango ice cream – every single possible way of eating mango in a nice and chilled manner, they have it all covered. Yum yum!   Then go to the famous Ladies Market to buy souvenirs with bargained prices. At night, we saw Symphony of Light from Tsim Sha Tsui promenade. It was beautiful, as the famous skycrapers in Central performing a stunning light show. Glad we had our best position to see the view at that night. From the same promenade, we also visited the Avenue of Stars. Unfortunately, most of the hand prints are from Asian celebrities we barely knew anything about.

Day 6:

On the sixth day, we planned to see his office together in Central, but unlucky me.. I left my octopus card at the apartment, so we went back home before reaching Citibank Tower in Central. Then we decided to dedicate our time by hopping on a tram! Locally known as ‘ding ding’, the tram is one of the things you must try to see the real Hong Kong, all for HK$ 2! After wandering around the Hong Kong Island, We visited Hong Kong Park, Pacific Place and had our last dinner at Yoshinoya.

Day 7:

There was nothing much we can do because it was our last day in Hong Kong. After saying goodbye to Tin Hau, we took taxi from the apartment to HKIA in the morning. Had our breakfast at Burger King in the airport. It was such a rush time for us, because we spent so much time to buy chocolate until we forgot the actual time to check in. But then again.. We finally reach the plane on time. Back to Singapore and then Jakarta.

WHAT A HOLIDAY……. Love love love!

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I’d like to re-cap a bit about my vacation in Hong Kong. I know it’s been months, but better late than never right?

So here we go..

1st day:

We arrived in Hong Kong at 12 pm. Before we landed, the Tiger pilot had informed us that the temperature reached 6C that day and it was the coldest weather in Hong Kong. Though I can say proudly that this is my first winter experience I’ve ever had in my entire life! So whatever the weather looked like, we were so excited! We easily took Airport Express from HKIA to the city and reached Hong Kong Station. We wandered around IFC Mall while we were waiting for him to come and pick us up. Getting to H&M in Queen’s Road Central and buying a pair of boots around Central became our main agenda during the day.  Glad we successfully grabbed something in our first three hours in the city, yihaa! And it was ended by a nice dinner at Cafe de Coral.

2nd day:

It’s time for Disneyland! We took MTR to Tung Chung Station and stopped at Sunny Bay Station to get another train that will take us to the resort. Unfortunately, we couldn’t see the Disney parade that day because the program was stopped during the whole month. Actually, it’s my second time to visit the theme park. Nothing much has changed, though I still love this place!  After that, we went shopping to Citygate Outlets. There are many branded outlets like Mango, Guess, Esprit, Adidas, Crocs, etc. But my high hopes went off when I realized that I couldn’t buy any of them because apparently the items were not so good at that time. Then we finished the day by eating delicious vietnamese food in Vietnam Pho around Tin Hau, near our apartment.   

3rd day:

We woke up earlier to catch our ferry to Macau. Thank God, we bought the ticket a day before so we can estimate how long it will take to reach the terminal in Shun Tak Centre, Sheung Wan from Tin Hau. We took Turbojet to get to Macau and it took about 1.5 hours. Arrived in Macau, we were in a bit hurry because we had to go back to the terminal by 3 pm. So we decided to visit Ruins of St. Paul Church and The Venetian shortly. It was such a shame after we stepped into Macau, because we should have been spending more time in this lovely city. They have so many beautiful old buildings, it felt like we were travelling around Europe haha. Senado Square is definitely amazing, it is paved with a wave-patterned mosaic color stones created by the Portuguese. And casinos are all over the place! I’ve never been there before, so it feels like I were being in the middle of James Bond’ movies or something. And the best part of Macau is trying to taste that famous egg tart in Senado Square. So yummy! At 3 pm, we went back to Hong kong and spent the rest of the day shopping in Times Square, Causeway Bay.